Wednesday, January 09, 2008

hmm.. i'm beginning to feel that i dunno wad the hell lies in front of me shio.. haha. it's time to search for my research calling ar? haha. wells.. i think i dun lk drug discovery again.. LOL!! i decided i wanna learn more abt cancer instead.. hehs. well, the only reason is only cos i love bio more than chemistry.. hehs. but at least i'm still really keen on helping cancer patients! =) =) i think i'll try to apply for the cancer children society.. hmm.. but i dun really seem to have the time le leh.. after agreeing to join the alumni band.. nvm.. i shall walk one step at a time.. *i've been repeating this sentence so many times since sch reopen shio!!*

and i really wanna complain abt something. why do seem to have absolute minimum contact with all the profs? oh wells.. it's nt that i wanna suck up to them so they can give super nice reference letters but i think there's alot alot of things to be learn from them.. not from the lect only.. i'm more than delighted to learn things other than the stuffs on the lect.. and these are the stuffs that'll interest me more somehow.. haha. but that is, if they are willing to teach.. when can i start learning more practical stuffs?? (i think i've watched alittle too much tv to have this kinda thinkings.. LOL!! cos unless it's attachment or internship, they dun really do that ar? LOL!! STOP WATCHING TV MAN!! haha.) i really love labs shio.. haha. (can u feel my love and passion for science??) and new things interst me more than old stuffs that everyone can noe by just flipping tb.. hehs. maybe i shld turn myself into spongebob so i can absorb everything quickly and easily?? haha. but then, sponges can reach saturation point easily ar? haha. maybe i shld combine.. into.. spongypooh? LOL!!! crap.

i think i'm lk kinda well, leading a pretty rotting live.. everytime say NO time No time.. so where had all my time went to? i din wanna join a cca cos i nid more time for studies.. but i din produced results i wanted.. then say wad, cos of tuition ma.. i just feel that it's just an excuse.. oh wells.... but i still dunno where my time went to.. watching tv and trying to do things to mk me feel happy? haha. and yes.. the results is, i am happy.. LOL!! that's enuf le right??

no matter how tired i am, all i can do is to look forward ba... =) =) i cant deny that it's just the first week, i'm already complaining fatigue.. must be rest too much then cant adjust back.. but i really enjoyed my hols alot this time round.. so, it's time to CHARGE!!!!!

after mopping ard and feeling really down for a few days cos of sch reopen and the super lousy timetable, i've regained something.. my love for science!! YEA!!! and i think, lotus played a super impt role in it.. she just cheered my up whenever i see her.. so, i'll forget abt all my fatigue and stress (seriously dunno why i'm stress, but i do feel it.. haha!) once i reach hm.. because of her, i love coming home.. haha. just dancing, singing, babbling ard makes me day bright.. and definitely, her kisses are full of love too.. LOL!!! finally, she've learned how to dote on me le.. haha. and just now papa was saying that we 2 maciam lk sisters lidat.. LOL!! then mama say, wad u think? both are brought up by us leh.. HAHA!! and i think i've grown pretty attached to her too.. ah dear rant a list of ppl who i'll miss if i choose to go overseas.. the tot that it's going to be so long without lotus, and i may just risk the chance that our bonds will be totally weakened just turn me off shio... that's the thing with kids wad.. u can go overseas for yrs, yes u'll miss ur family, but they'll still recognise u and may miss u even more.. but a baby noe nuts!! she'll ungratefully forget abt u!! haha. (the key of the paragraph is just.. i love lotus and lotus is my family's happy fruit. haha)

i better slow down all these kinda mental processes in my brain le ba.. haha. this is easily known as "think too much". LOL!! i shld just kip to my principle: "tk one step at a time and the sun will always shine after the rain~" haha. who cares if money seems to be against me suddenly or that my printer is a bit liar? LOL!!

i must go and regain my energy before i decided to read my lect notes.... SLP!!!! i'm now really terribly tired.. lucky i got tk a nap before i go for tuition today.. if not, i doubt i'm still alive at this moment.. haha. GOOD NIGHTS!!!

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