Friday, July 16, 2004

god.. please bring ailing back to us. wake her up. bless her. and everyone ard me. please. i really can't take anymore da ji. trouble comes in grps. i keep on having this bad omen that something bad is going to happen. esp when i board 963 today. i dunno why.. really duno..

gh.. thanks for cheering me up today. thou u din make me cry.. i was dying to cry. but u only managed to make me think of food. heh. i really dunno who to msg le. and i simply can't open my mouth lo. heh. but it wld be really be better if u were to gimme the ice cream and fall down the stairs. and hopefully, lemmi bite. doesn't tt sound nicer?

and the biggest thanks goes to mingyao and daniel!~ u all made me cried. and cry real hard man! everything's been bottled inside, and i just can't seem to cry out. see ailing, i only walk out in daze. fixated gaze. but i can't cry. i see them cry until so poor thing, i can only stone. thou i cried on my way home, that's nothing as compared to the tears u all lured out. oso dunno how u all do it one. and u 2 make me luff in the end oso. remember one left one right hor!

i really fainted from shock just now lo. damn tt cat. nothing stay there for wad. nearly bump into it. and i was crying and walking at the same time lo. nearly collaspe. only collaspe on the wall when i enter the lift. for goodness sake. grr.. why din i let aaron send me home? then nothing like this wld happen right? abish!

really.. crying does help. it helps u vent out all ur emotions that's bottled up. i feel so relieved after that. dunno wad's the volume of the tears orh. heh. but where's the shoulders when i need it most? darn. now my face muscles is so relaxed now lo. can smile le. finally. just now is tense until i'm in total daze. hmm..

i love u, everyone! includes ppl who love me, hate me, no feelings towards me, helped me, harmed me, dun like me, bullied me, bitten by me! every single one of u..!

anyway.. happy birthday huiling!!

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Thursday, July 15, 2004

hey people.. u all better take care of urself please. watch the cars and MOTORBIKES when u all cross the road. i dunno wana risk losing a fren.. this whole day really total blankness lidat. ailing got knock down by a motorbike on monday night. damn that motorcyclist! he only manage to fracture his hand! the most only break his hands. and my poor ailing is lying in the ICU, still in coma! wth! is this life? i dun wan anything to happen to her. god.. please.. all different type of god.. i dunno she can sustain how long. her sis said that the doc dun think ailing will wake up. but i believe in ailing. i'm sure she can.. and like her mother said, she'll go out, talk with us, gossip with us, drink with us...

her face is like double her original face lo. and i really can't recognise her. and i really mean it.. that's how bad it is.. damn that guy! her head cracked. her shoes flew in 2 directions. that's how bad the accident was. wad can i do? i can only squeeze he mother's shoulders and tell her, "everything's going to be ok. she'll make it thru". squeeze her sis's hands and tell her"take care" i noe life still goes on. and i'm going to believe my life is going to go on with her with us. ailing.. hold on there please. u held on since monday night le.. i'm sure u can do it. so many ppl waiting for u. so many ppl went in to see u grp by grp. are u sure u dun wan to wake up? and ur mum, ur sis, ur dad. the eyes all swollen le.. wake up can? sighh..

enuf of all the sad things.. i've got to cheer up. everyone's been asking me wad happen to me. why am i not smiling. i'm everyone's kai xin guo right? cheers! heh. later gotta do the dumb gp. life still gotta go on.. btw, i'm troubled. shld i quit drama anot? darn. i wana learn the cello. it's been my dream for long. but, oso dunno why leh. haiyo.. i oso like drama leh. but then ar, i dun really like the people la.. but seriously, it's just the few of them wad.. oh shoots.. maybe i shld go for the interview. see whether i manage to get into the exco not right? but drama really very difficult to get cca points leh. thou i changed my path, but, i still need to get into uni ma.. darn.. i'm hopeless. my fingers pain shio. ytd play cello until abit swollen. esp my last fingers. pain lo. tt idiot keep pressing my finger. ouch! but i really think play cello very cool leh. but my cello is damn lan lo. idiot. the bridge so high. make me gotta press harder. feel like having one cello myself. heh. wad am i thinking la. i only now how to play the basics. and i'm learning to convert from treble clef to bass. heh.

5566 and energy gonna come to town soon. really bz la. why must they clash?! feel like going airport on 8/8 leh. but gonna queue for the fireworks party to watch 56 leh. then energy going imm on 8/9 at 11. 56 got party at 1. and maybe can get vip pass. then can take photos with them u noe? cos i m1 user. after that ar, got to rush down back to the fireworks party. energy going to perform that night. hectic schedule right? and ar, the chinablack thingy for 56 need to have formal wear and high heels. damn it. u think i can wear these for the rest of the activities? are u sure u are not crazy? haha. must change clothes alot of times if i go for all.. haha.

everyone's been asking whether i'm ok.. right up to this point. can't everyone stop reminding me about ailing? gosh.. love you, people! must take care!

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

one month has passed shio. without me knowing it. hmm.. well.. haha..

anyway, today i'm damn suay lo!!!!!! can't believe my luck with buses today. first ar, early in the morning, 858 broke down. and guess wad happened? the door can't close. wth! oh my god! then everyone started alighting. wad can i do? of course alight lo. if not gonna wait so long for everyone to renew their ticket lo. bleh. then ar, 811 come. the bus shows that it is going to yishun interchange wad. so ar, we board it lo. and oh my goodness! it turned away from the way to interchage lidat. of course we panick and quickly alight. haha. i believe the bus will go to the interchange, but i oso believe that the bus will turn quite a big round ba, judging from the turn it is going to. hmm.. so, me and ah lai went to take mrt instead. i really tot we wun be late lo. cos the train's like the time i take when i miss 858 ma. and who noes, we board the 853 at amk chinmei was on. this is it. the bus after the bus we always take and will be late one. not really late, but we gotta rush to be on time. haha. and of course, we were nearly late. long time nv see tat teacher le lo. gosh!

and after that ar, when i was coming home, i waited damn long for 853 lo. and guess why? i heard the bus uncle telling the auntie beside me that the bus broke down. that's why sooooo long. 3 24 went pass me, 2 73 went pass me, and still got lots of bus come and go, i'm still stuck at the bus stop, waiting for the idiotic bus. bleh!! and ar, the bus is really very very crowded! filled with bak kuas!! see la meng, all ur fault by intorducing this term to me! hah. and got one idiot, squeeze pass me when it's already so squeezy. wth! then he stood rooted to that place lo. kaoz!! i nearly lose my balance lo. he took the place i was like holding on to. grr.. then when i sat down, another bak kua sat down immediately. haiyo.. haha. but who cares, cos i feel asleep almost immediately.

i was damn tired today lo. dunno wad happened to me. haha. lack of sleep. sooooo sleepy during the lectures. haha. in the end, i lunch oso wan to sleep. and ar, i got illusions during bio lecture leh. saw some figures ard, then choong's head got one circle of light ard her leh. oh my god!

and oh ya.. i failed my gp! grr.. 43.5/100 can't believe it. but quite expected it. haha. wad am i saying? keke. see, i told u.. today sure very suay one, cos i started badly! haha. please, tml will be a better day!!

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Monday, July 12, 2004

hey! why do i feel that it's been a long time since i last blog when it's only like 2 days? haha. nvm. long time nv come online lidat shio. well, sat nv come cos went movies with weng and edmund. he sooooo good. treat us to best bet. haha. good! then ar, oh my god! met that hy again. when can i ever get away from him? grrr.. he suddenly appear to serve us lo. then i keep talking to weng. haha. but he didn't seem to come bother me again. phew. haha. oOPs.. i'm sooo evil again. *slap* ouch. i've been slapping myself these few days leh. duno wad went into me. haha. best bet very funny lo. and it's really very lame. singaporeans ar..... haha. wonder how hy noe which movie we watching where we are lo. he sat beside edmund just lidat. heh. had a good time on sat. we were so rotting lo. but we had so much lame jokes and stuffs. in the end, i reach home at ard 9 plus. god grief. LC ended like only at 10.. haha.

then ar, ytd went chase 56 with huiling, which was a disaster. haha. can u imagine going to the wrong terminal and hotel? well, that's us. i can't believe our luck. but then ar, we manage to go to the nkf charity show thou. haha. 5566 damn shuai lo. and we waited soooooo long for them. and xiezhi and renfu waved at us....! soooooo happy.. then after the show ended, got some gifts presentation. and xiezhi waved at us with his hands at the side. maciam wan hide the wave. cool right? we are really dorks there. everyone staring at us as if we are aliens. haha. and we rushed down the stage right after tt lo. haha. kena chased. but me and hingman dodge. then huiling kena pulled. haha. after tt reached home at 12 plus. haiz.. no one pei me again. lucky got a device called hp! haha.

today ar, had vball. alamak. who told me not pain? pain lo. all red red. now blue black. haha. pain pain.. haha. wow! outside now so misty shio. wad's happening? hmm.. wrote on my book so many things, then i dunno wad i wan write on the blog le. but who cares. haha. i'm hungry again. yea! got rambutan eat. did i spell it correctly? how come like look so funny huh? hmm. dun care.. haha..

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