oh my god! i dunno where my photos went to! i'm so sad. lucky some of it i got develop. esp those grad photos. heh. sadz.. can't put it on. and ar.. i really think i look so ugly i these photos. haha. didn't noe i'm tt ugly. keke.

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oh wells.. today had pw meeting with vina, crystal and wanjin. heh. weng and yanxin joined it too. they are so disturbing, i keep on tuning in to their conversation and drift away from the meeting. haha. i think vina oso. keke. long time nv see yanxin le. haha. missed her man. haha. we saw irene and fanghui at the food court. heh. long time nv see oso. this one is really long lo. haha. bleh.

i hate pw! this is all i wan to say man. taking up all my time. and today ar, i wanted to study one. then i lose to them, so oh wells, got to type out the surveys and interviews. haiz. see la, cam online again. though i can choose tojust concentrate on my survey and go offline, but it's not really possible man. heh. gosh! wells.. gotta do my surveys now. haiz.....

wow. long time nv had short entries le yea. cOoL..

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finally gpp is approved. and got all the ticks. heh. so happy. finally. do so many times le. but then ar, ms ng ar, ask us go borders and kino to look at the books then go library find them. oh my god. go orchard again. heh. she say our grp's research is the least focus of the whole class. heh. and we really see the books until wan to die ar. hunger pangs. haha. and the person even tell us to stop copying from the books. and i just tell her straight in the face tt i'm only copying the titles. haha. then talk back abit. haha. she got nothing to say and walk off man. hee. and talking about hunger pangs, we had mac breakfast somewhere near lido. oh my goodness. sudden downpour! then ar, gosh! the rain keep spraying on us! made us wet lo. haha. and today like walk all the underpass lidat. heh.

then i had my blizzard again! haha. sooooo nice. vina oso think very nice. then when she wan to buy, haha. the person say ice cream too soft le. so cannot sell. heh. poor thing. we went far east shopping and they maciam like pei me shop lidat. i'm doing all the shopping lo. heh. so guilty. then ar, i just can't find my white pleat skirt!! found one la, but it's damn short lo! dun dare to wear ar. heh. then we go upstairs and saw mingyao, mick and nic they all. heh. so qiao hor? i tried on another white skirt. haha. it's soooooo big. drop right down to my hip and can pull down somemore lo. haha. $48! GOSH! haha. buy tt skirt, dun need buy my skirt and shirt le. haha.

met him today. oh my god.. suddenly, feel sooooo.. erm.. oso dunno how to say. i dun feel like saying tt i'm happy, but, i think i'm happy leh. oh my god. how? must i take back all my words again? i tot i've tot it thru. but it seems, i still dunno wad i'm thinking. i really tot im clear everything le u noe? now, it seems to me tt, it's cos i long time nv see him, tt's why think tt everything's over. heh..

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Wednesday, June 09, 2004

wolala~! i feel so good today. i went running shio. on my own accord. i'm so happy with myself. i dunno where i was runnin to though. see road run. haha. ran until somewhere near admarity(or how do u spell it?) met station shio. like quite far from my house. i got run 2.4 la right? then i climbed the stairs up. heh. almost died at home lidat. keke. but now, well and about. listening to FIR's wo men de ai! gosh! made me think of renfu on wqyl ytd. shuai! today specially waited for tt. and i was right on the dot. heh.

went market in the morning with mummy and co. heh. pull me out of bed at 7 plus lo. gosh! i was sooooo tired. but wad to do? haiz. no one help her carry things. slept while siyi they all were eating. haha. then pulled myself all the way inside. only woke up at the fish there. haha. interesting. haha. oh ya, the fish monger look sooo young. must be helping out his daddy or wad. heh. good boy. alamak! the auntie at the fruits stall tot i just enter sec sch leh. i really look so young ma? dun have wad. i j1 le leh! must be cos she long time nv see me and thinking tt time didn'y pass so easily. haha. she gimme so lychees. heh. nice leh. oh ya. weihan finally smile at me. sooooo cute. maybe cos today i played with him. keke. i pinched his cheeks shio. haha. he call me jiejie today oso. haha. feel so happy. keke. qingwei oso played with me. haha. made my mummy go home cos i wan go home shit. then she can't go ah ma's house look at the photos. keke. but i really ask her to go home with me ma.. haha.

die la. today nv study at all. only did one maths question. shit! 2nd week is going to end soon. aiyo. holy hell. think mummy wan me to go back find the doctor. aiyo. i tot dun need le leh. since it's been a long time since i had an attack ma. haha. nvm.. bleh! oh god! gimme energy to go study!!!!!!!!!!!!

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good question. wad's the defination of liking someone? i really tot tt it's tt u feel very good talking to him, miss him every now and then, let him disrupt ur train of tots constantly. but izit really true? i think it isn't now. after much serious think on my side for the past few days. these feelings will fade. and it really did fade. i can't feel these anymore. sort out everything. it's just ttm on my part. i dun like him...! oh my god! made me think so much then realise tt. and now i've realise my mistake, i feel empty again. wad do i wan man?! *biong* but it's better this way then let someone hurt u right?

i'll nv forget how jianwei hurt me. heh. cannot forget the flood i create for him in the library. but it's my fault right? for falling so deeply and quickly. heh. wonder wad's he doing now. oh gosh! wad am i thinking?! *abish* but anyway, i think it's my retribution. for hurting hy. but wad can i do? things done cannot be undone..

kenneth's bdae is coming soon. heh. a day i had looked forward for sooo long once. but now, i dun feel anything at all now. and i'm smart enuf to give him the present earlier. i knew i wun have the chance to give him the present. heh.

i tot tt time can heal all wounds. but it didn't really. even if the wounds are healed, can u make sure tt there's going to leave no scar? time can really heal superficial wounds. but i doubt it can heal deep wounds.. if not, why does the pain come back once in a while? and why am i listening to xian wei jing xia de ai qing now?! *���瑙�浣�涔������变��浣� ��跺��������浣������ョ�辨�����涓���荤�����琛� 浜茬�辩��璁╂��蹇�~璁颁����ｄ��浜�������缁�浜����浠�缁�* can see the words? heh. lyrics for the song. i'm not going to believe my feelings so easily now. nv listen to my heart. my brain is more clear. i have enuf of everything. really enough..

lai! i'm sure u can get over it one! dun think too much can le. yea.. but it's good to think somehow la. heh. u are always influencing me lo. LOLZ! heh. xiangz! heh.

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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

oh my goondesss! i can't stand it! how can renfu be sooooo shuai?! oh gosh! i'm so mesmerised by his perf just now. he really got the xi bao in him man! and xiezhi oso! te gong dui soooooo cute! ah! gimme my renfu and xiezhi! shuai!!!!!!!!!!!! wqyl rules! and this morning oso got watch dou zhen! gosh! shuai! 5566 forever!! oh my god!!!!!!!!!

and so sad, today 5 du c no kunda. switch off the tv when i knew it shio. wad to do. dumb show ma. and no laogong. heh.

SHUAI!!!!!!!!

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oh my goodness! i ate the whole pack of potato chips just now. i'm sooo guilty now. gosh! tml must go running le la! no running off from it. heh. die! and other than that, i ate mango, guava, 2 piece of chocolates. i'm doomed! but i ate it at different times of the day ok. aiyo. i'm sooooo sad. bleh.

well, that's beside the point la. i dunno why, suddenly missed everyone. oh my god! where's my gang? all gone.. weng, yanxin, shihua, zhengxuan, mel, danny. where are they? and alicia, chee kee, ben, jincheng and everyone else? i've only caught up with weng and abit with shihua. we are really seperated hor? stupid schools la. haiz.. oh my god. i missed the days we pon band together, face chew together, chalet, ubin trip, bbq, band dinners, malaysia tour, long and tiring band pracs, the esso, fiesta, COMP! and the day before the sars break and all the things. and oh ya! tt bdae u all celebrated for me! play with water somemore la! made me fall right on my butt! pain! and oso, stupid ppl, dun believe me tt my kitchen really on fire. enjoying life in my room somemore. and oso the surprised party for weng. oso play with water and it rained right? the failed kite. and i believe i fell too right? why am i always falling? yanxin ar, remember how u teach me how to cycle not? made me fell too. and ubin, i flew somemore. my scars still ard ok.. heh. haha. all those stupid stuffs, including using sanitary pad to stop bleeding. twice somemore! haha.

first, i wan give a big sorry! to liqi again. i'm sorry that we doubt u. we would have so much good times together without tt incident right? and no one believed u except shihua. tt's pretty disheartening right? i promise tt i'll open my eyes and ears big big to tell the differences btw a real fren and a backstabber. heh. but luckily, we resolved everything. sat like nothing had happened btw us le right? thanz for standing by me with weng and shihua all the times. haha. i can still remember how u all flood the library tt day. made me turn into a clown and tried cheering the 3 of u all up man! heh. and the tot of making the library our home, with everything. in the end, we only managed to put our shoes and blazzar inside hor? hee. the library is the best of all in the whole band room. the place where we shared secrets, troubles, happiness, gossips, ghost stories. but now, it's not ours anymore. haha. i love of of u!

alrights, now i wan thank my darling weng. remember we dun really like each other somewhere ard sec one or two right? haha. so funny. i didn't noe tt only after i read my diary. same as u right? classmates for 4 yrs, yet it felt like centuries. i nv regret knowing u! maybe ar, if elaine nv go away, we wun be tt close ba. heh. u helped me when i'm down in the dumps. u tell me u love me too! heh. and i suddenly remember, me and tt idiot lied to u about cheekee thingy b4 right? i still feel so sorry. tt day ar, cannot forget. but i got a feeling, u forgot. due to ur.. u shld noe hor? haha. now we in seperate schools le. but i still feel the bond with u. heh. it's like no one can replace u lo. haha. oOps. goOsebumps? hee. i still dunno why, i like can only tell u my deepest feelings. the things i told u are the things i wrote in my diary lidat lo. heh. honoured? u better be.. haha. i'm always here for u dear. although, it's always me needing help and not u hor? how come ar? muacks!

of course i nv say the rest of u nv help me la. hee. still remember the bukit pangjang thingy? me and my big mouth, yet i took the bus home. then haha! zhengxuan! our saviour always! funny. and dumb yanxin act nerd right? heh. i missed the chalet where we had so much fun. but i'm not going to org another one! heh. and oh ya, i oso can remember we all cursing jh they all together. haha. all zx's fault la! the hp thingy. but they deserve that la. and our poor shihua, stuck in the middle. hee. and late for tt dumb graduation thingy. haha. all overslept. we very great right? nv tidy my hair, i quciky get out of the house le. haha. wad to do? 3 days nv sleep at all leh. and everyone's talking about prom, yet we screw up our graduation thingy. hee. cannot tahan our gang leh. heh. talking about graduation, i didn't expect me to cry on the day of the comp. last day. heh. the sentence "SWISS COTTAGE, GOLD!" wow! sounds so nice right? hrmp... and everyone was jumping, hugging, crying like mad. wonderful day. heh. nv regret joining band after all. right guys? now that we are on our seperated ways, it's so sad tt we can't get together and do all those stupid stuffs. heh. i really enjoyed all ur company. and marc the shortie. jianhong the dumbo. danny, i missed ur "kelly........." though the hitting was sorta irritating, but i missed it too shio. haha. i feel so sad suddenly. seems tt everything has come to an end lidat. the show is over, and a new show is on air. haiz.. miss ya!

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Monday, June 07, 2004

heh. i still feel like typing leh. dun kill me la. hor.. hee. last one like talked about ytd ma. now, i talk bout today lo. i dyed my hair, hopefully to get rid of the white hairs. but in the end, we like managed to make the white hair turn purple, and my hair more brown shio. alamak! not the effect i wan. i purposely chooose a color tt's not too far from black le leh. but heng la, not really tt bad la. hee. so, wells.. heh.

today the teacher like realise me and ah lai always late shio. then still ask me whether we working or blah blah blah izit. of course not la! heh. but who cares, i'm not late anyway. today really very sleepy. dunno why. do tt savasama do until almost fall asleep. oh my god! haha. and we learn a more fun one. almost slip and fall shio. heh.

laiz! happy le la.. stop getting jealous of me le la.. u oso got le la. haha. though u say u not diabetic as yet. bleh!!

oh ya! did i say tt the chicken in the magic paintbrush is very very cute? oh my god! pork pork pork! love it man! pork to the tune of she bangs somemore. haha. pork! hasif looks very cute and i saw a very pretty girl! oh my god! really very very pretty lo. we one whole row agree leh. u think leh? and i was so excited seeing her. am i bisexual like wad shihua and yanxin said? gosh! and i'm in love with ivy too. heh. but then ar, ben got her 5mths ago. now then i noe. heh. so sad. why the lead actor not shuai? he smiled at me leh. he looks cute from afar, without his specs. heh. a day full of cuties huh.. ytd. hee!

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heh. didn't manage to blog ytd. haha. wad to do? reached home at ard 12 plus. then kor kor sleeping, so, just tried to do my tutorials instead of coming online and chat with all the owls. haha. and guess why i reach home soooooo late??!! all tt stupid mrt fault la. break down for 2 hours. dun see me tt dumb la. i nv wait for it to recover ok. haha. but we wanted to detour to jurong east and take back to woodlands since the service for newton to toapayoh is gone. but the train nv come, but the train we shldn't take came. so they decided to take it and i followed them lo. and in the end, heh, the train stop for awhile at somerset. then ah lai say taka there got 960 to go back woodlands. and we walk there. and she realised that it's 190 and not 960. oh my god! ok lo. so we take to cck and take train back to woodlands lo. gosh! the bus is sooo packed! and we missed the bus that was not packed! how lucky can we get right? nvm. we managed to squeeze it up and arrive safely at cck without any trouble. actually, i was sorta enjoyin myself though. i like night life outside. but then ar, chinmei like abit erm.. felt so sorry lo. like bring her ard lidat. sorry!! cos me and ah lai like still so happy lidat. bleh. and ah lai ar, no one's blaming u la. dun worry! hee!

2 nights in a row! wah kao! magic paint brush. all ur fault. made me walk so much! but the show's nice la. so nvm. we went back find tt one night stand guy. hee. he really look like TENGJIE! is he his bro?! nv ask, cos the guy ar, like pissed le. suan him until he rather dun talk to us. bleh. so sorry! and i ate satay! kaoz! the service is real bad lo! and the cashier smoking somemore! the girls all diao us lo. wassup man?! if i'm not hungry, i'd nv BUY FROM THEM!! we walk tt dark path back to dhoby ghaut. oh my god. no one seems to be talking. and i really abit scare shio. heh.

oh yea. i bite fazli. heh. so funny. he pinch me back shio. evil guy. haha. and i "bit" someone else hoh... heh.. and he's trying to be lame ar? got send to hospital yea? keke. bleh. went back swiss. and oh my god! where are all my juniors?! and i saw sooo many unknown faces! gosh! am i really a section leader last time? how come i can only recognise the sec fours? heh. saw chew the min we walk in. soo suay! got no choice, have to face him. but heng la. he nv nag at us again. phew. last time ask us into the office and made my listen to things i dun understand at all. maybe cos he noe i'm not in sa le hor? hee. unfair leh. their comp piece like nicer lo. not like our blue shades! so boring. and fiesta ask hip hop dancers join! gosh! i wan go perf at fiesta oso. heh. but now like nothing to do with band at all hor. i finally agreed to go serenade. hee. saw the swiss fazli. missed everyone~ saw liqi too. weishan tracy they all too of course. qirong! u really still look like my laogong, kunda! i love u! haha. and which is tt idiot who confiscated my shoe?! gosh! made me sooooo paiseh. lucky everyone concentrating on chew. playing. if not, i'll be sooo..... grrr.. oh my.. QMs! u beta be careful! haha. and chew oso sia suay me. hope no one really took notice of me. heh. alrights. i better end b4 anyone fall asleep. heh.

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