Friday, October 26, 2007

i really feel sad shio.. why am i still rushing the lousy report with ravin at this moment of the time when we are supposed to hand it in in less than 12 hrs. boohooo.. my eyes are really glued tog now.. =( no one to help me.. =( ah dear went back to camp, no one to cheer me up.. =( but i think ravin's a little worse off than me! cos i kip sending her the wrong files.. LOL!! i feel so stupid.. the epinephrine surge when i hear her asking me why the files dun have this this that that.. god.. i really tot i din save la.. it's all my heart and bloood man... lol!! and oh wells.. is i send her the wrong files.. i've been spending really loads and loads of time on this lousy project while i just dun feel it'll turn out right.. i dunno why.. i just feel us forcing our way thru it.. but wells. it's d-day tmr.. but i dun feel at all happy... =( =( nor excited.. cos i'm still drooling over the report now.. and guess wad? my bladder nearly burst.. hehs. cos i dun wanna leave ravin doing it alone and i'm so irritated that i cant find the citations i wan.. so i refused to go.. until i cant tk it.. hehs. so i'm bathing at 12 again... =( =(

maybe i shld start saying "can i dun do this?" instead of "maybe i can do this?".. LOL~ i've seriously really wasted so much time....

but wells, no use crying over spilled milk.. i shall look forward.. hehs.

next tues is coming soon.. or rather this weekend is coming soon.. i really hope i can finish the present soon.. every yr i'll sure curse and swear (nt that bad la..) that why did ah dear pop that qns at this time of the yr??~~ lol!! it's all ard exam period and i had nv ever enjoyed an anniversary with him without thinking of studying somehow or another.. LOL!! but no worries.. i'll mk an improvement this yr... even he oso notice a change in me lo.. i shld be moaning and groaning that i dun have enuf time at this period.. and then crying now and then, feeling duper stressed up... feeling super unhappy the moment i start studying.. haha. BUT! none of the above happened~ yippppeee~ i feel so proud of myself.. hahahaha.. but, i've been neglecting him and my frens thou.. lol.. i will nv ever go out or leave my books when i'm determined to finish reading it or studying it.. so i oso din went to liqi's bday celebration too.. and ah dear's stuck at some corner of my house watching tv or playing psp.. lol! i dunno where did all this self-discipline come from.. i guess, it must be that tw trip and my new found love --> SCIENCE~ haha

i think it's so funny cos i was sooo irritated just now with something then totally cant focus on my lit review.. end up, i saw something abt them finding some animal that can produce a chemical against cancer drugs.. haha. i was so excited that i forgot that i was irritated.. and haha.. it's nt mel who cheered me up with those so so so familiar phrases.. zx said that to me before too~ haha. and ar.. that time i was watching tv mobile then go something on cancer society de.. warm blood just gush thru my body la.. i'm really serious.. i really wanna do something for them.. and that's the reason why i wanna gain as much knowledge as possible and become smarter so that i can fulfil my goal in life... it has really slowly replaced all the tots of being a housewife and staying at hm.. i dun find myself thinking so much of the latter anymore... haha. I HAVE A GOAL IN LIFE!! haha

shit.. rant so much today..

tata for now.. hopefully the report will turn out well...... =(

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Thursday, October 25, 2007

I HATE IT.. I REALLY HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I'M GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DA*MN IT!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRR..............

so pek cek with everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!! my bp is still super high.. hehs. esp after complaining so much to ah dear just now...... i must be lk a complain queen lk lotus.. everything oso can complain.......

YUCKS! it's going to be over sooooooooooooon!!!!!!!!

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