Thursday, December 02, 2004

dumb alicia! took photo with sly!! gosh! his hands went ard her shoulders somemore.. oh man.. wad the hell!! sooooooo jealous!! boohoo.. why we like all so unlucky one ar? nv have this kinda luck.. zhongkai oso lidat i guess. his fren saw so many ppl including jay and jolin and blah, but he nv see any, thou they work at the same place.. haha. boohoo.. why alicia nv ask me out today shio.. haha.. but then leh, even she ask me out, still gotta think twice ba.. din slp a wink last night. haha.. really gotta peifu us thou. me, weng, yanxin and edmund gossipped and crapped thru the night. haha. but edmund's the weakest of all.. haha.. last night was really a crazy night man. i'm the craziest lo.. haha. the dumb game made me sooooooooo bloody high.. haha. in the end, screamed too much, now losing my voice le.. haha. screamed alot during the singapore idol oso la.. really crazy bunch of ppl.. haha. wonder next day got hear us not.. hehs. the screams were the highest when we watching the results one lo.. gosh! trying to drown mel's crap wad.. haha. but was quite fun la. thou we were quite rotting.. din go cycling or play pool.. but who cares. i got lotsa laughters and highness.. haha.

took some pics.. i mean quite some pics at the chalet.. check out those retarded photos ba.. haha.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2134754471&rand=77229153&upload=1

oh yea.. congrats to taufik shio.. but when izit that sly looks happier than him ar? then we cant hear the results, but see sly happier but taufik fans happier.. so we dunno who won.. haha. but so it's taufik in the end la.. haha. wad a night.. ^^

tues went out oso.. haha. wad a packed day shio.. haha. went bugis, esplanade, merlion park, harborfront, sentosa.. woot.. all in one day.. haha. really looooong time nv see him lidat shio.. hmmm.. da ben dan.. took lotsa pics.. sooo happy.. love taking pics le.. haha. go http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2134861144 to see the pics we took ba.. haha.. so fun..

hmm.. just went downstair meet him shio.. woot.. wad a big surprise i got man.. he went ard trying to find durians for me to eat shio.. WOOT!! i was raelly sprang.. din expect this kinda suprise.. haha. so one more wish completed. hehs. the durians are sooo yummy.. hehs. then even ask me take the remaining box home. wow. now mummy and papa eating it. haha. share la right? i cant possibly finish all in my current condition.. sorethroat, cough, sneeze.. i've got a cold.. hehs. thanks dear.. my papa say the durians looks quite ex and then is not bad one shio.. wow.. da ben dan.........

time seems to pass really fast with him shio.. hehs. din realise that it's about 10 le when we tot it's lk the most 930. woot. hmm.. quite awake now le shio.. thou i only took a 4hrs nap just now. haha. but nvm la.. ^^

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

i cant help but think, wad's life all about? hmm.. shihua said that it's all about the care and concern about towards ur loved ones.. but wad i feel is ar, life is all about ups and downs. hmmm.. it oso mean tat we are actually on a see-saw.. it can be one min u're up, the other min u're down.. isnt it true? life is not smooth sailing at all times. i feel myself on a see-saw.. take for example, playing with gh.. oh wells.. he's bigger than me, so ar, most of the time, i'm on the ups.. but there'll be times when i go down ma.. it's not always very nice ba.. but if this is so ar, then is he feeling down all the time? oops.. this is not a very good representation of wad i'm wanna portray.. but, being with me, has always been nothing but trouble ba.. perharps the see-saw representation is quite true.. o.O

most of the time, i love myself.. i mean, wad's the meaning of life when u dun love urself wor? u must learn urself before u love others ar.. but.. sometimes, i hate myself.. dunno why.. ytd was lying on the bed and thinking thru my whole life. wad has my whole life been about? i conclude.. nothing.. but i came to realise how many ppl i love and how many ppl love me.. am i really worthy of their love? i dun feel so.. thinks that ppl bai teng wo le.. but then, do they really love me? who noes.. where did all those passive thoughts come from wor? seriously, oso dunno.. just dun feel myself ytd.. hmm.. and right up to today.. i even hit myself shio.. with my small pillow la.. am i dying? ppl always say that on their deathbed, funny tots just come..

and wad happens when u die? life is already a question mark, so wad about death? i dun wan to think further.. but then, if i'm given a choice, i dun wan to die lo.. i mean, i'm still so young and haven experience the real LIFE yet, u wan me to die.. that's pretty saddening.. and dying oso means living all my loved ones behind.. sit down and try imagining that they are all gone.. do u feel the heart wrench as i do? it's real painful.. but u nv noe when u are going to die leh.. which comes down to a
point.. live ur life to the fullest.. nv let anyone control ur life.. and love the person u love.. dun regret..

wad am i doing shio? out of my mind le.. jialat.. gosh................................! how does it feels to pull urself out of the crowd, sit down and feel wad they are feeling? hmm.. i nid someone to do that to me shio.. i dunno wad i'm feeling le.. numb.. again.. sia la.. wad happened? am i dying or i've rot too much? hmm.. been having too much empty slots le.. so lotsa time to reflect on myself.. and i'm beginning to hate myself.. how could ppl tahan me? dunno la.. better zip my mind before i go crazy with all those funny tots.. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

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