Friday, November 04, 2005

jialat.. i dunno why i'm singing all sorta silly songs now... heh... and when i just wanna tear up the maths paper... heh...... there's a monkey looking down at me asking me tooooo JIAYOU!! i think the post it looks sooooo cute.. esp since there's a monkey there... so i dun bear to use it... how??!! ok.. freting for not the right thing... beeeeeeeeeeebooooooooooooooooong................... feeling kinda bored now... but must rest after finish 2 3hr papers in a go..... heh.. i'm very energetic now leh... must finish the bio paper then can slp........... the time goes tick tock tick tock...... but doubt i'll slp early again.. judging by the change in my biological clock.... heh.. only can slp ard 5am... and i took sooooooo looooooong to start my engine today lk ytd..... heh.. news-cum-newspaper-cum-afternoon tv session-cum-greedy session always tk up the whole afternoon shio... ok.. i'm guilty that i waste alot of time.. but i dun care la... i must relax now to be on the best form.... cos that day also go out and relax for one whole day, then at night, suddenly feel i'm ready when i was sniffing my beloved baobao halfway.... then the next day i start fretting again, the feeling is gone..................... haha.. is the relaxation or the baobao's miracle leh???

stop trying to say my baobao is disgusting i tell u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! baa baa black sheep have u any wool....... but bao bao seems to be getting thinner as the years go by.... nvm, i'm seasoning the new baobao.... haha.. dun worry, if baobao and voodoo's puaby fell into the waters, i'll save the bui bui puaby....

oei... bui bui puaby!! u owe me the photos!!!!!!!! upload to my album for me la.. since u soooo freeee... instead of indulging in that book, go and update the beautiful blog la....... i give u until 24 nov to learn how to upload photos to a blog, u comp idiot... wooohooooo.... u can do it!!!!! *the voices behind me says*

harry is coming back to town.. and he's getting uglier as he grows... haiyo.... that's sad... but nvm, it will still be something to look forward.... cos it's harry potter!! and the date 17nov says that exams will be ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeayea~!!!!!!

weng~!weng~!weng~! suddenly feel lk wenging cos i tot of my chem tys.. haha..
are they really staying overnight at the airport? it's really freezing there at night... hahahaha... jiayou ba da jia~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*pan kissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*
voodoo buaby got receive not?? rmb to give to puaby!! and dun forget all the slping spells!!!!!!!

good nights everyone~!!!

it's back to the papers again... ^^

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1:42 AM

Monday, October 31, 2005

how does one stop relying on another? how does one stop being so dependent on someone? develop new habits? get use to being by urself? get use to doing things urself? get use to keeping things urself? maybe it'll work..

finally stopped crying.. but my eyes are really very tired.. and very swollen.. and just now shampoo got into my eyes.. it's really painful... have been always crying all these while.. but nowadays, i got no one to stop me from crying.. to one to lend me his shoulders to cry on.... only have to stain all my pillows and even my chicken butt.. and yucks.. my fav towel is always soaked with mucus.. and ytd i soaked my melody towel.. super gross... sometimes i really miss the voice that either say hush hush, stop crying, or the voice that says cry until u shuang....... but nowadays, only hear chicken scolding me...

hao lei orh.. zhen de hao lei orh...... really wish someone can be here to cheer me on, instead of always tellin me i have to learn to be independent.. if it's so easy, my mama wun be so worried abt me all the time..

shit.. some water is coming out again...

zhen de hao lei... wad happens when someone die? will he feel the pain? or is he numb le? how was ah gong feeling when he passed away so peacefully? a sudden yet peaceful death.. heh. murder cases, suicide cases have been hitting the headlines over and over again.. arent the ppl tired? or are they mad? or has certain emotions just gush over and BOMB! and all those suicide bombers.. and the bombs at India there.. humanity.. izit still in the mind of those mad ppl?

some ppl are hanging on to their lives dearly, and some are practically wasting their life, and some who just end it as they wish... have they ever tot of their dear ones? was lying on the bed lk a zombie who cant move that night cos of my back.. and suddenly, i started thinking, wad if my parents act find me motionless and dead on the bed just lidat.... they'll be devastated ba.. and wad'll happen to dear dear? yucks... awful thinkings.... one death will lead to many sufferings.. really.. dun even try to think of it...

the hospital is really a very funny place huh.. one side, new lives are brought into the world, the other side, ppl are leaving the world.. did the spirits by chance went into the womb of the mother and yea!! a buaby is born!! will this happen? tat's so unfair.. wad abt other spirits?

i dunno wad i'm talking anymore........ just feeling very lonely and having no one to talk to... i made a mistake by finding gh just now... a terrible one... i shldnt have told him anything from ytd night... it's my business anyway... why must i always mk him feel unhappy too? why must i always mk him at loss of words to help me? why must i always give him so much trouble when i shld solve everything myself? even if the sky falls down now, i'll still have to be strong!! he've done too much for me and i've troubled him enuf.. i dun nid him to be lost until he have to find weng for help anymore... i wonder when i'll break my promise again.. everytime say le oso halfway give up....

i can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the princess left at
8:30 PM

can anyone ever stop me from crying.. the tears have been flowing since last night till i fell aslp and started the moment i open my eyes... i'm really very tired..... can anyone save me....................

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1:59 PM