Saturday, April 14, 2007

i'm serious... i just wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so many a times, i feel lk just walking onto the road and let the car knock me down.... of cos i din, cos i dun wanna worry my loved ones.. and wad if i dun die? waste so much medical fees.... but, i'm really nt having any stupid depression.....

i hate going out... i love cosy little room.. i really cant stand being out from my comfort zone for too long..... wad's wrong with me? i even dun lk goin to ah dear's house anymore.....

i miss ah dear alot... but when i see him, i dunno wad to say to him.. cos i'm more used to kiping it within me le.... i cant find him when i nid him... habit le, i seldom find him thou i still do... and, i'm lazy to talk...... so much things spinning in my head, but i'm really lazy to open my mouth to talk.......... wad's wrong with me?

my temper got super bad nowadays... cos i'm used to being alone.. i forgot the feeling of thinking for another lidat... so i throw temper when things dun go my way... bitch.. lucky ah dear is very patient with me... but, will i get use to not being alone again??? yes... when exams end and i get to spend more time with my frens... and when ah dear finally ord... and nt just talk to me everyday for that pathetic the most 20mins...

i'm dumb now... i haven been talking for hours cos i dun wanna talk..... i'm nt angry at any one, i'm just used to being alone, stoning alone..... i just dun wanna talk......

on a happier note, zx decided to join us for the tw trip... but that's just 3 of us! nvm... ppl will spring out eventually.. we'll have our mini band tour again!! and i think i'm agreed to join band with yx... great.. hopefully all can cure me soooon..... all these days at hm has made me pretty antisocial (thou antisocial shldnt be used lidat...).....

but still, i'm still happy of cos.... just tired.. and chui... cos had gastric attack again.............. had trouble eatin my pizza hut... hom!! then came back again when ah dear force me tk my medicine...... sobs....

my life is abit too plain now..... i'll spice it up... 4weeks later......... cheer up kelly!!!!

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wahahaha.. to couples out there, let me share with u wad i've learned during my readings of my psycho text! wooot!

1. Nuture Fondness and admiration. In successful marriages, partners sing each other's praises. When couples spin on their talk with and about each other, the marriage tends to work!

2. Turning towards each other as friends. In good marriaes, partners see each other as frens and turn towards each other for support in times of stress and difficulty.

3. Giving up some power. Bad marriages often involve one partner who is a power monger. This is more common in husbands, but some wives have the problem as well!

4. Solving conflicts together. In successful marriages, couples work to solve probs, regulate their emotion during times of conflict, and compromise to accommodate each other..

so, u think ur relationship can last?? haha. this is a reseach based on 700 couples by Gottman.. and man....... work towards it if u guys arent ba!! wahahah...

why am i crapping again??????? heh.. i study development until i wanna go mad le.. why one chpt sooo loooong de??? somemore this stupid lect must read 2 stupid chpts.. but then, it's still better than reading sci tb...... heh.. at least i'm learning more abt myself!! haha.. that's wad mk psycho fun!!! heh..

finalllllllly.... ah dear willing to gimme eat icecream tmr!!! my poor little stomach din revoke these few days i guess.... heh.. =) =) cheeers!! i'm in need of icecream to booost myself up! tmr is coming!! pizza and icecream is coming too!! so is ah dear!! dun nida weiweiwei le!! heh.. =) =)

back to my last few pages... I HOPE!!

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

i just lk to come here and pour things.. to no one in particular... no matter how busy i am.. why ar???? why the urge to blog leh???? but welllllllssss... who cares.. i happy can le.. heh

so angry just now... damn 913.. the first one refused to let me get down for tuition, and the 2nd one refused to let me up after tuition.. what's this??? 913 decided to boycott me ar?? mk me reach later means go hm later.. then after that mk me go hm even later... idiot.... i wanna go complain la.... the first bus is TIBS 1024!! heh.. 2nd zoom pass me so i din see... HRMPH!!

why hearing more cases of ppl transferring courses and even sch?? hom..... i still dun have the courage to do it no matter how much i wan.. i cant see myself in any other courses now.. i'm stuck with bio sci.. so... i shld look for a future in it and work hard towards it instead of thinking of otherwise!! (lk, i even dreamt i kena accepted into NBS for no reason at all... haha.. i wasnt even thinking in the day!!)

my mama ask me be careful when i go hm cos got this rapist on the large.. somewhere near my aunt's house ba... marsiling's pretty near woodlands.. i was just putting myself in the shoes of the girls who got raped, i nearly went crazy.. haha.. it's sooooo scary............. jialat.. i've really caught the disease of thinking too much in ppl's shoes.. (nt that i am tat considerate ok...) and it makes me pretty sad after that.. (find trouble only...) lk tat time watch jiayou jin shun, i quickly shut off the tv cos i'm too sad... wahahaha.. ok.. that's silly... haha..

mama ask me ask ah dear to start buying hor fun for her... wooot.... this is the tradition tao-hao-yue-mu-zhen-ze.. (at least that's wad they told my mama..) mama wan this son-in-law le ar?? wooot..

u noe why i'm crapping so much?? i just nid a break... i'm dead tired now............. god........ but i had sweet potato soup at the tuition there just now... haha.. niceeee.... i always kena forced to eat things there de leh... FAT U NOE???!! heh..

mama told me that day act we shld celebrate this yr's bday tooo.. cos chinese is 21st bday... wahahahahaha.. i am expecting a party again!! (esp after i told my mama how much i love my home... woooot!! i think she feels really appreciated!! haha.. and dote me even more... wahahahahaha...) presents presents..... wooot!!!

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