Friday, August 17, 2007

i shall declare that i am feeling much better already.. i finally got over the fact tat ah dear is going to leave me soon.. the depression mode just switch off the moment i woke up today leh.. and i knew it's over when i dun find smiling a chore anymore.. oh god.. i can finally feel myself.. =) =)

i dunno wad had caused the change but i am glad for the change.. i noe ah dear wun wan me mopping ard the place either.. sometimes i find it funny.. we dun nida say anything and we already noe wad's going thru our mind.. hehs. and all our reactions are imprinted onto our own mind already.. so wad if he cant be ard physically right?? i just have to noe he is still ard and missing me at another part of the earth and is coming back sooner than i'll believe... that's a blessing already.. (did some fairy godmother pop into my dream last night and brainwashed me??) but i rather think cos i spill it out onto the blog and spoke to no one in particular.... writing my emotions has always have a threpeutic effect... so great... i wun be unhappy when i see ah dear and waste our precious time mopping ard the place...

i tot i had a rather funny dream during my nap just now.. but i cant rmb why.. and i really wonder who on earth switched off my alarm....... so i cant wake up.. and so i'm here instead of going kickboxing.. seems that i've gotta go tmr then.. i feel so much recharged nw.......... i felt sooo deprived of slp.... to a point that i cant study.. the tuitions are really taking a toil on me.. i really cant it that i have 2 tuitions almost everyday.... i've been a zombie thru the week and i think my parents are quite disturbed by that fact..

but everyone's love n concern makes me goes on.. every morning papa wakes up specially to mk breakfast for me and tells me to be careful b4 he goes back to slp.. i was really touched by that.. it felt that someone is fighting alongside with me.. hehs.. even kor kor fighting for toilet with me i oso find it nice.. cos i was really used to waking up alone and leaving alone without seeing a single soul.. i can nv leave in isolation man.. i really think life will be so much more miserable without lotus lao da.. our moods will definitely lift in the presence of her.. she is the real kai xin guo man!!

my party is coming soon and i'm feeling so excited for it.. haha. mama is still fretting over the menu.. i tot they've settled everything??? LOL!! tmr mama plus ah dear plus me going to shop for the food le.. we cant do without ah dear u noe?? i saw her SUPER LOOOOOONG shopping list.. lol!! party comes means my REAL BDAY is coming soon.. LOL!! even thou ah dear is nt going to be by my side as i wished and hoped and dreamed that it's nt true.. i must oso spend it happily.. he's feeling guilty enuf.. but why do i have a feeling that no one's going to spend it with me?! lol.. nvm.. there's still andrew and lydia ar.......... hehs.

tata for now!! the entry's long enuf!!

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