Sunday, July 31, 2005

hmmm... had a rather nerve wrecking week.. doing nothing but chieonging hw and studying all day looooooong... and i got alittle too stress and the moment i close my eyes, i'll see miss choong telling me that i din memorise.. so end up ar, having average of about 4 to 5 hrs slp a day ba.. the shortest shld be 3hrs ba.. hehs.. but nothing good actually came out of it.. cos cant really REALLY memorise it and i dunno wad i'm talking abt for that week.. yu wu lun ci... quite funny actually..

the worse is nothing but thursday ba.. weng came all the way down to my house but i refuse to see anyone of them.. talk about really collasping.. i really cant take it anymore lo.. and i think i cast a shadow over him when i act cry so hard, tremble so hard and shouted something that no one wld wan to hear at him.. maybe i've really been forced to the wall le.. i really cant take anymore.. but not totally by him of course.. hopefully he can forget wad happened... and for all the nine mths, it's my first time trying to humour him and nothing good came out of it.. but luckily, he forgive easily la.. if not i really dunno wad am i supposed to do.. and a lot of ppl are talking abt sucide to me.. dun worry la.... i'll really find someone to talk to if i'm really breaking down.. i rmb last fri i asked weng out ma.. even thou i dun think i told her wad i act really wanted to tell her la.. but nvm la.. since it's over so long ago.. i dun feel lk brooding over it anymore..

and cos he is willing to do it, i had a really nice day ytd.. haha.. quite romantic to spend the anniversary with all the fireworks.. hehs... but sad to say, his bro is just beside us.. but who cares much anyway.. hehs.. then his sis oso treat us to jap restaurant.. the food was supposed to be nice la.. but my stomach is throwing temper ytd.. the moment i eat something, i'll have some acute stomache.. oh my god.... then i was shivering all the way lidat.. that was the bad part la.. and i was too tired too.. so abit walking ard in a daze.. and my mouth and throat hurts...... so boooohoooooooooo..... but watever... hahaha.. newae, the fireworks is really very nice leh.....

i just made him very touched by sending my fish n chips over ok... hehs.. and the stupid taxi driver nearly make me wanna cry by drving me to somewhere i dunno.. haha.. my tears tap very loose nowadays shio.. hehs.. but watever la.. miss choong say cry le then ok le.. it's rather true for me nowadays.. cry le then ok le.. the worst is cant cry at all.. haha..

my birthday is coming!! yippeeee!!!! my mama was sayin it ytd oso lo.. haha.. and i promise him that i'll finish all my revision b4 30oct.. so i will GAMBATE!! and kelly must learn to relax............. kelly jiayou!! thou u are dumb, but ur hardwork will pay off one!!!!!!! :)

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