Monday, September 13, 2004

how? i really feel bad.. and i mean bad. i din realise that until i reach hm lo. i was still joking with him until i reach hm. i flopped onto my sofa and din wan to continue the joke again. when has my hm became soooo saddening? i dun get it.. i tot it shld be a place when i'll be happy and go bersek in? must be cos i feel the emptiness when mummy's nt ard. i was thinking of wad to tell her le. even phrase properly le cos everytime i oso dunno wad i'm talking. then in the end, i saw that the house is empty. so irritating. then ever since she went to work, i dun think i have had a nice real dinner, except on wkn. wad can i say? cant stop her from going to work right? then i really dun feel like talking lo. alomak..

and i'm getting pissed with him lo. cant he just get abit of confidence and stop thinking about it? and everyday hear him say almost the same thing. and i've been repeating the same thing over and over again. alomak. and somemore i'm not in a pretty good mood ba. and why am i the only one giving him some moral support? he din even bother showing some concern when i tell him wad had happened. this is the most irritating part. merely say i really very zhun and continued about his worries. fine.. i can say nothing at all.. does this really mean that our relationship is soo mutual until i'm only here to give him advice? damn it.. forget it. i'm just letting off my steam. he believed me enuf to tell me wad happened. i shldnt be getting pissed here right? damn it.. i'm just not in good mood.. wad happen to me man. is the impact of that incident really that great? i dun think it shld be lo. but.. aiya.. i oso dunno la. i just getting pissed with myself. i wanted to tell him.. but heh. too bad. it's pretty much cos of him. how can i say it out? forget it la. alomak.....

do i always cover my unhappiness with unusual bersekness? i was practically crazy today lo. not that i'm not always crazy la. haiz...... nvm. tml will be a better day. it better be and wld be!

oh darn.. everyone's getting pregnant. now i'm confused on whose baby i'm carrying. weena seems to be having mine leh. then i think i'm having like 2 in my womb. judging from the state of hunger i'm always in. then the dumbo have mine. i think i have his and weena's one leh. haha. JIALAT LIAO! then he can be retarded enuf to say he's going to jail soon cos we are all underage. alomak. where got ppl so retarded one? hehs.

and that hy. can u like stop pestering me??!! i think i said from last week that i'm not free right? today was already not very happy then was sorta irrtated with ur msg lo. damn it.. i feel like blocking u lo.. but hp got that function not? din wan him to have my new number one. then in the end, he msg my own number that day. i feel guilty when i dun reply lo..... damn it..

tml will be a better day!!

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